Sunday, April 15, 2007

Filled with sorrow

I've been crying all weekend and feeling very dismal. Squeeze's cousin, whose farm we took Lester to, emailed and said that they haven't seen him for a week or more. It was hard to part with him in the first place, but knowing that I will probably never see him again is enough to string my heart out on a line and keep my eyes brimming with tears.

My grand scheme was always to get him back when we go rural this summer; to be an outside cat in the country. He would have loved that. Now I don't even know if he's alive. He probably is, but I'll never know that for sure. Unless of course, he comes back... But the only familiar thing at the new place was his carrier and the blanket inside of it. Not people. Not anything but that. Is that enough to bring a stray cat home? I can only hope. It has really been eating at me since I read, and re-read, and re-read again, her email with the bad news. I am very upset. Lester!!!


Jenni said...

I am so sorry for you about your cat, I hope that you get another email with good news of his return but it is always hard to lose a dear animal :( I've had to deal with that loss many time growing up on a farm and they definitely become a member of the family. Sorry :( Hoping with you for his return!

Vendel Family said...

I am so sorry to hear about Lester... I know that if Harley was missing I would lose my mind. Thinking of you..